I've always wanted a pony

The first steps are always the hardest.

Would you take the first step, knowing the journey you were about to embark on has a high chance of ending in disappointment and failure? Would you be the one to take that awful first stride into that twisted loop?

I would. Although perhaps not today.
It's a dangerous game, trying to prove oneself wrong.
In all times but this time, it's finally not a game.